Incomplete...!!!!

I didn't know how a person can feel for the other person today . And it's coz of just one day. The day that change my life .All of sudden things changed for meh. I can’t believe that I didn't know that I changed and it happened with in a blink of an eye.

Once upon a time I was in love with a girl. I was in love with her so deep that when she left me I was all alone in this world. The world was so very empty for me. My mind would think of nothing but the world without her. Mind was total blank with only one thing in mind. Did it really happen am I in the real world or not? Later after days of the  story if  anything that approached to meh in a form of any kindness of closeness by anyone towards meh would be taken as an excuse that I wouln't take.Then I knew that I won’t be able to feel anyone’s love for me.  I don’t know how it happened but it happened and it was a real shock for me.I began to be lonely and started to get disconnected frm ppl around meh. The story ended long time ago. And today I am trying to narrate how I felt during those couple of weeks when I smiles with no glimpse of happiness in the expression that I showed.I never though that I would ever be in those face. Remembering those times I can say one thing for certain that I couldn't stop myself frm thinking over and over again if it really happened or not???

It was  quite unconvincing to me that I loved her so much and the passionate love that we had in between ourself just broke apart. With poor me myself being known that she went away from my life. I were not going to have her see me anymore in my life from then. It might have been all coz I was the one who was wrong and she was the one who was right. But still I think I am right and she was wrong but……. still can’t I can't believe it till today . WHY ? WHY ? WHY ???

My eyes were wet when it sees her from nowhere coming to see me. I could hear her voices that keeps on buzzing in my ears that says t “I LOVE YOU” even though she was gone. She went away leaving meh along far away that I won't be able to see her any further in my life. Since she left I was able to be creative … ha ha !!!! and I learned to write something out of nothing as times were just spent thinking . One thing that really good happened was I started to be even more creative that I was. It was one of the amazing thing that happened after the end of the love story. I have writeen alot of poems, songs, journals and stories too.... they are just incomplete in itself and couple of small piece of writing like this that were never so good to be publish.I felt like I was being creative as I used to like what I wrote but the sad part is that I never knew how to end it after starting it. 

I don’t know why she left away in silence. I didn’t even get one word “goodbye” before she left me. Nobody wants to say "goobye". A goodbye before leaving meh alone would have been fair enough for me. I would have a reason for forgetting her.  I couldn't forget her coz I thought there was still  hope of getting together somwhere . I loved her so dearly and I thought that she did the same with me. I didn't know what went wrong .That made her run away so far away from meh. I wasn't even able to see her on the horizon where my eyes could possibly see with it's power. I didn't know where would I be able to find her again .I still had the faith and hope somewhere deep in my heart of  getting her back to my life . Ane see the colours of the real life and be happy again with cheerful smiles. I had promised her that I would never make her down and upset.Those promises were broken at times .Things happened at times unnoticed that just made  me make mistake. It just happened and I know then(at those times) she forgave me for that. I couldn't forget those good sweet days, me and my girl were together .And those days memories always recalled me of the girl who were always so sweet who would make my every bad day into good. She was the most beautiful creature in this world for me. She was so real and so down to earth.I had heard many times till then that ppl change and it doesn't take a second for ppl to change and go a different direction.She had the sweet husky voice. She was  gorgeous and used to  always smile. I never had any bad days in my life when she was in my life. Every day and nights were so very perfect as if she just made those days and nights for me just for me. But then she was gone and nothing remained the same. Absolutely nothing .Things changed a lot and I also got changed. I changed alot but I wouldn't be accepting the fact that I changed. I could accept everything couldn’t accept that I was left me unanswered silence in the darkness. The other thing which was quite surprising to me is that I stopped to feel for other coz it’s all useless and this world is not fair......... and My Love was just incomplete in itself as I  was the only one left in this world.....!!!

 

EEY raamaaa maile ke lekhey ni launa..... merii basaii.... LU maan paroo pareyna ... yesoo kehi lekhuu lekhuu vayera kehi lekhii diyeko ... JAii NEPz...

 

HAPiie AAPieee TiHar...

 

- ROCKEND aka ROcks or ROCKy...!!!

Roc bro..........Daami lagyo the way you poured your feelings out.

if its fictional than well done bro BUT if its something from your past and reality than this is what I felt .....Its is however sad and unfortunate what you had to go through and what this experience made you feel. Bro Love in life has a strange relation to educate us about how unfair emotions can be. WHY things happen is unpredictable yet to ponder very deeply is so natural from a true lover. Bro can I ask you a question????? well If I was falsely accused of stealing money when I truly hadn't stolen any, do you think I was guilty if I hadnt stolen it ????......and would you think I was wrong  if I felt guilty anyways????......... and felt miserable even if I was innocent???...... Would you encourage me to move on because I hadnt done anything wrong and I was innocent victem.????....I guess the answer you have for me is to get a hold on your self, chin up and move on.......................Your story has the same circumstances.........You are innocent yet you feel guilty and constantly hurt your self...........You refuse to let go due to your unconditional love................but why ponder in that feeling   I feel if you didnt do anything wrong??? YOU know what worked for me bro....when My heart was broken...........My feelings changed from unconditional love for this girl to unconditional HATE.....for her for disrespecting my true love.............she didnt deserve my true love,,,so my love turned into hate for THAT girl and only her........I promised to find some one who would love me respect my love equally .SOMEONE TO LOVE BRO.............AND soon enough I found my SOUL MATE ..............................................Roc bro I have known you to make others smile, laugh and enjoy.......you are the ideal friend one can have..........whats inside you and your feelings is your own ...................Just dont turn the tables around and have the last laugh and leave all your loved ones in tears. TAKE CARE BRO.

maggiee...!!! Thanks for the comment and it's always my pleasure to hear good comments  yaar.. 

Well maggie I guess I won't turn the tables around . Well if I'll turn those pages again then I may wish myself to be vanished in a seconds. If I go back to those old page.

Well maggiee chau chau !!! Yu know I am a person who love to see smiles in everyone face who are around meh be it.SO, maggie dun't worry I am fine now...!!!

MAggiee well she passed away and I couldn't accept that she passed away leaving this world.. ANd yoo RoCK mora AEklaiii...!!! hehe!!!

uuuhile ko kura khuiilera gaye pani yaad aauney raicha ni bela bela ma... tara ma ramailo kura haru matra samjhiney prayas ma sadhaii jutii ra hunchu tara hijo chai ali besii nai yaad ayoo ani lekhi diyeko mera duiii topaa aaasuu le ke vanii raheyko thiyooo tyoo bela... ma!!! when I remembered her last night..!!!

 

-ROCKend aka rocks rocky...!!!

ohhoooooooooo rocky... kasto sad love story ni... u never told me this... :P:P... i hope ur doing betta now :)

Roc Bro .................I'm extremely sorry for your terrible loss.I thought that she left you for another but reality is bitter than I imagined SO in that case .......... Bro Love is a hunger which is only satisfied by love. I know you hunger for love so open your heart and let yourself be loved. You will find out that LOVE is such a potion that can Bring a lot of happiness and joy in your life. Dont be scared just ALLOW it. Yes, the same love that brought sadness in you will bring forth a new life and joy back to your heart. Cherish your past....its yours precious forever...............but nousish the present more so you can enjoy the future better so you can smile on your past without sadness but as an eternal gift of unconditional love. And Bro Believe me..........Love will heal the pain..............just give it a chance. AND THEN ......ROCK ON BUDDY

Hey rocky, sad to hear your past. Let go of your past and please never make anyone victim of your past, I mean to say that people do not love anyone emotionally as much as they had loved their past beloved. Someone is always there waiting for you and love her more than you had loved someone, I am sure your days will be the sweetest ever. Rock always.

maggiee... well... hungry for love rey hehe... apuuii ke vancha... launa ma kata janey holaa... I am not hungry for love hau!!!!

 

nani...!!! thanks for ur comment... well there is someone waiting for everyone..!!!

 

ROCKEND aka rocks or rocky...!!!

But anyways Rocky simply 'ROCKS'!!!!

Keep it up buddy

ye amo katro lamo lekh....tya ni englishma afu ta bacha dekhi english ni nepalima padheko hai ali ali pura lekh sakyauna kasto time lagya malai ta......
lau bro je bhaye ni "KAILE KANHI KUNAI KURA PAUNU BHANDA NAPAUNU RAMRO HUNCHHA" ki kaso bro

Shit does happen sometimes broda!!!!!!! Feels sorry to hear ur sad luv story!!!!! But you cant stop moving with ur life ni haina broda!!!!So keep rocking on broda!!!!!!

 

SONA1- this rocky always rocks.....!!! well SONA1 thanks for ur comment...!!!

SPOken- Kehi kura padhnu ko satta napadhnu nai thik huncha rey....!!! haina kasley vanoo...!!! padhaii napadhiii lekheko kura kasarii thaha pauchau ki aaru lai padhnu lagauchauuu ho...!!! dyaam testo tah vayena ni SPOKUU.... hehe!!!

 

GRunge- Yeah this is life.... it's sometimes treats us with unfair realities that we can't accept at all...!!!

Rocks, I am very sad to know your past. Things happen in life, all you need is MOVE ON. Yeah, just move on, keeping her in your heart !!!! That is not the end, make it a beginning  

I really hope there is someone waiting to bring back  all your happiness and love. Till then keep rocking !!!!

yeah...!!! I know it happens in life and this is how life is...!!!  maaiya thanks for the comment....!!!

Well yeah it's not the end of the world ...!!! That's why I am here right now...!!!

Maaaiyaa I am sorry ...!!! I am not done with the thing that you were waiting....!!! I'll post it when I am completely finised with it...!!!

ROCKEND aka rocks or rocky...!!!

mora rock napadhnu ra napaunu ko difference ni thha chhaina ki kya ho ye ni lai lai :D

khaii spoken..... !!!!

aba aanpaad pariyoo hami tah.. padhnu ra napadhnu ko farak ke ho thaha chaina...!!!

 

tara kunaii thau ma lekhiiyeko kura napadhey samma thaha hudena ...!!! aba katii kura haru napadheyko ramro nai huncha vanchan.. tara jaha samma lagcha fact lai face gareyko malai ramro lagcha ani tyoo saaahiii ho jasto lagcha malai....!!!!

aabaaa maile bhujeko , janeyko , thaha payeko kura vaneyko hai gaalat vayema chyamaa prathiii chu..!!!

 

-ROCKEND aka Rocky or Rocks...!!!

Rockend!
A wishful thinking! Love! Wishes! Desires! Death!! Unfathomable elements we are subjected with. Normally, I like to elaborate on my comments, but this time, I shall try to be as laconic and as precise I can be.

The loss you have so stoically put is far more vehement than the confession drenched with tears and woes. The face I see in Shoutbox is very different from the shade I see here. And, it seems, the pain you are harboring in yourself has become the very power of your stand. Very few people can pretend to be apathetic to such tragedy, yet, manifest the pain and tears in the veneer of nonchalance.

We have no control over life and death, and of course, love. I feel woebegone seeing your pain and the effort you put to mask it with your affability. I hope, the dolefulness of this tragedy will make you a truer person, and a loving person at that.

I know the pain of losing the loved ones to the junctures we have no grasp of. And, it is not easy. The moments only unfurl to gnaw on your very existence. It begins to seem the purpose of life has expired at the behest of the atrocity of destiny, or karma! Easier said than done: but you are your own destiny, and your are your own giver.

The misgivings we have upon our own power to attest to such transpiration is only our weakness, and that we do not have full confidence upon the might of our heart. Heart is the strongest organ of our body, and so is will; the strongest element of our psyche and persona. Look into it, act upon it! And see what you can get from an ounce of effort you put into making it happen. C'est La Vie!!

PS: Rockend, I hope I did not sound preachy! Just that you have exhibited an uncommon gesture in putting your feelings and emotions in words, that just enthralls one in the captivity of its innocence and pain. I wish to extend my best wishes to you, and that you will commend her memories with your honesty and faith. Good things come to you, in small packages, and in small time frames. If only happiness were eternal, we would be the most blessed of all creation. Live life!! Love Life!! Semper Fidelis!!
 

mcmxc- thanks for ur comments...!!!!

dyaang yurs is the longest of all till now hehe!!! with big big words hehe!! ma tah dhaatarraaang dhaaraang vako .. ni word dekhera ... katii thuloo thuloo word use gareyko aamaa ni lai lai ni lai lai...!!!

eey ni ma ShoutBox ma kasto chu ra.. !!! oooo..!!! oo!!! eeeyy... hey heey..!!!malaii nai thaha chaina ma kasto chuu....!!! aautaii ho manish tah aautaii ho sabai kura... farak ke huna pugyoo hola....!!!

I moved on long time agoo...!!! as it was a story long tyaam back ko...!! samjhana aaucha yaadaa kaadaa...!!

eey MCMXC heart ko kura nagara yaar daar lagcha malai... mero heart ra lungs kasto cha... ani meri internal body organs kasto cha dyaang.. I cna't see them.. hope they are sanchaiii hehe!!!

Nah yU ain't PreaCHY...!! Yu are kere manchey with big words hehe!!

 

-ROCKEND aka Rocky or Rocks...!!!

 

 

mero sathi ko twakey bau...

part I

 

It's 12:00 am midnight, Kamal bahadur is not yet home. Muna the wifey of kamal bahadur is worried about her husband. As he always come late and he arrives home drunk.

-to be contined....!!!

 

sorry  couldn't post part I  due to the failure in the internet connection....!!! I'll try to post the whole thing by afternoon today...!!!

rocken aka rock or rocky aba 'NAPADHNU' RA 'NAPAUNU' BHANNE YEUTAI SHABDA WA YI DUITAI SHABDAKO YEUTAI ARTH HO RA ?

dyaang..!!! SPOKEN...!!!! kya danger raisaii deko yaar... eey ni lai lai eey lai lai...!!!

WEll Napadhnu ra napaunu dyaam they are totally different and have got their own meaning .....!!! Aba.. mero aakha le ke dekhyoo kunniii...!!! Well SPOKEN maile je vaneyko thiyee thik nai vaneyko thiyee pahile ko comments ma...!!!

Ahile tah rangii birangii ma lekheychau... SO reply ta garnaii paryoo ni kii kasoo...!!!

SPOKeeey..!!! they are 2 different words...!!!

"ahile kahi kunii kura haru napayeko nai besh huncha"  khai ke khaii..!!! khojey samma ta payeko nai thikk... ni aba napayeesii kasko ke lagcha ...!!!  Tara thaha cha spokuu Napayeko kura ko aabhaav sadhaii vaiii naii rahancha..!!! SO need something to replace it...!!! just to filll in the aabhaav of the khojeko kura...!!

ROCKENd aka rocky or rocks..!!!