Wah Sun_shine Wah!

kasto mutu nai kutu kutu khane kabita.

mutu ko bhitri patrabaata lekheko jasto cha.

keep on coming!

छोडेर जानेले गएछन, जनेनै थिए जान्छन - जानदेउ
माया र प्रेममा हिसाब हुन्न भन्थेन, साचो होइन होला
हिसाबै गरौ भने पनि, तिमी घाटामा छइनौ मित्र
तिमी जस्तो प्रियशी गुमाउनु, के उस्को घाटा होइन यहाँ?    

Been there, done that भन्या जस्तो हाम्लाई पनि थाहा छ तियो पल र दु:ख मित्र, चरेश खाए पनि हरेश चाँही नखाउ । जिन्दगी रमाइलो छ अगाडि पनि ।

Hawaa jyu, mero mann ko byatha bujhidinu bhayeko ma dhanyabad.

आँखा भित्र बस्नु तिमी छाती मा निदौनु
सपनीमा पनि मलाई सुस्तरी चियाउनु
मेरा सारा जीवन सबै तिमीलाई
मिठा मिठा छन पनि सबै तिमीलाई
मेरो खुशी मेरो सुख सबै सबै तिमीलाई
एती चोखो एती मिठो दिउन्ला तिमीलाई माया
बिर्सने छन सारा ले पुराना प्रेम का कथा

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tWbfol6ZVpY

All hugs to you. God speed.

sorry to hear about your story. and very heart touching kabita. don't worry, your wound will heal over time. you are honest and your life is beautiful, cherish it. hope you will find a guy of your choice with higher understanding one day. 

Just before your flight took off, you kissed me goodbye and said "बाबा, ज्ञानी भएर बस्नु, आफ्नो ख्याल राख्नु, म तीन हप्तामा फर्केर आउन्छु" . I can't believe from this day on, you are no longer mine! But, I share a bond that exists beyond the boundaries of your marriage - I will keep on loving you regardless! 

नासी जाला देह यो मेरो,
आत्मा त तिमीसङै
भएर बस्ने छ
धुक्धुकी तिम्रो मन भित्र

छ भने पुनर-जन्म फेरी तिम्रै साथ पाउँ
अधुरो सपना मेरो सबैनै पुरा गर्न पाउँ

के सोचे मैले, के भयो अहिले !!!!!

 

sun_shine,

i am not a regular poster but rather a silent reader but i could not refrain from writing to thispost.

selection of songs are really great :). i love these songs

its rather unfortunate of us that we donot get the divine opportunity to share our life with the person we love most/ or want to. but i reckon this is what will make us appreciate us more the next person that will be in our life.

i will not try to become the healer or recommend a prescription. every individual is different and you would need to find something else to take your mind off of him and continue with life. [ easier said that done...which i know very well].

my formulae has been cherish the past. wish them all the best for their future. and [ try to move on. the most difficult part of life ]

wish you all the best and this incident will make you a better stronger person. and here is a song that is going through your mind. 

 

very sad story, but it's bad  for you to remain sad all the time. The person who could not become yours and only yours is not yours anymore. Don't you think that the person is the betrayer of your life and hopes you built up with him for whatever reason?

He might have been in fake love with you so just furniced you a reason being his parents (caste if it was not the same between two of you, economic condition, education, beauty, or whatever, might be also be the hidden reasons) for going for another girl when he finally found a girl of his choice. See he could revolt against his parents decision easily, or he could just convince his parents that he was not yet ready to get married with anyone and hence come back to you easily if he was really in love with you. But he did not. So you need to think and move forward. You need to keep all of your hopes and aims of your life alive, live your life, try to be happy at the moment, because you are living not only for you, but for your parents, family and everyone. Your family's happiness lies in your happiness. Do not get frustrated and become lifeless too much. I hope you have strengths to overcome this difficulty. Good luck!

(It may be a great way to release suffocation, depression, feeling by sharing with others, so you might be sharing your story with us using Sajha. But, I think it is better to not to think much about your past and keep posting in Sajha monotonously. Instead better to go and mingle with your friends for some time keeping your study aside even when you have exams, or go for a roadside trip or a park with friend. You will be healed faster I guess.)

के थाहा त्यो जहाजमा मेरो सपना उड्दै थियो
बाबा आफ्नो ख्याल राख्नु...
बस् यिनै थिए अन्तिम वचन मायालुका
ख्याल राखी रहेको छु/ राखी रहने छु
कुन कुराको थाहा छैन तर
सपना थियो त्यो सांच्चै
सम्झदै छु के के देखेंथे
ब्युंझिएर बिहानिमा 
सँगाल्न खोज्छु केही मिठा पल
तर के काम
तिमी फुल्नु त्यो बारीमा
एउटा अजम्बरी फुल
ढकमक्क देख्न पाऊँ सधैं भरी
on behalf of sun_shine

मर्म स्पर्शी कबिता, मर्म स्पर्शी काहानी
यस्तै छ चलन यहाँ आशुको सिरानी

 

nepinny, sigh, Ctal and grishma - thanks for your sweetness!!! Ctal I comprehend what you said but nothing helps at this time, just nothing; and the only person that would is MISSING. We, for all those we knew, were a perfect  couple...we grew alongside each other in the past couple of years..Talk about compatibility-nothing less than perfection, he admired everything about me ( last time I saw him off at the airport, before he went out of my sight,  'katti ramri dekheki"-these words are still ringing in my ears!) Even if there were any of the hidden reasons you mentioned, I still believe he loved me throughout all these years and I did too,and from here on I will keep it alive!

 

आँखा सधैं रसाइरहे
मन सदा खिन्न
भोक त मेरो हरायोनै
राती सुत्न पनि दिन्न
 
दिन-रात टोलाउन्छु
रुन्छु डाँको फुकाइ
फगत एउटै अवसर पाये
राख्थे तिमीलाई लुकाइ

पराया भयौ तिमी अब
माया मेरो मर्ने छैन
तिमीले मुटु सारे पनि
म अन्त कतै सर्ने छैन

 

"तिमी बिना बाँच्न गाह्रो भो
मुटु दुखी रन्छ सास फेर्न सारो भो"

rahulvai,

कहानी त सकिहाल्यो, छाडि गयो ऊ
शब्द र संगीतको लागि, धन्यवाद ब्यक्त गर्दछु

यस्तै हुन्छन झुथो माया लाउने हरु
पिरतिलाई काडे मुकुत पहिराउने हरु
देखाउ छन सपना कहिले नबिउझीउ
जस्तो लाग्ने गरी,अनी ...
छाडेर जान्छन कहिले फेरी न आउने !

जीन्दगी यहाँ यस्तै छ
तुवालो लागेको पहाड जस्तो
सबै कुरा पाएर पनि
केही नपाए जस्तो
आसु त कती बग्छ अनी उही सुक्छ
मुटु नै पग्लिएर फेरी हीउ जमे जस्तो !!

Be strong sun_shine! B strong! Surely, there will come tomorrow....My heart goes to u in this complecated situation. With Prayer, Misu

दिन-रात टोलाउन्छु
रुन्छु डाँको फुकाइ
फगत एउटै अवसर पाये
राख्थे तिमीलाई लुकाइ
sun_shine these lines simply made my eye wet.........................
I can realize how it feels.........................

sun-shine  स्वेच्छाले छोडि जानेलाइ संझेर रुनु भनेको आँशुको  खेर गर्नु हो ---  बि ह्याप्पी!  साच्चि कबिता चै साह्रै  राम्रो लाग्यो ।  सोचमा पारिहाल्यो त मलाई पनि गित सुन्दा सुन्दै --

आज शहरबाट फर्किँदा

मिलाउँदै  रेलको छुक्छुक तालमा

बढ्न थाल्दै थियो मुटु ढुकढुक

संझिदै

बाटो हेर्दै  पर्खेर बसेको तिमी

अधैर्य भै हिउँमा चिप्लेटी खेल्दै थिए

तिम्रो न्यानोपनमा समाधी लिन।

ढोका खोल्दा कस्तो रित्तो पो!

आम्मै! कल्पनाको यो कस्तो चोट? 

सताइरहने मलाई बनेर छायाँ

जोडिनेबेला छक्याई दिने कस्तो सपना!

बाहार बनेर तिमी

 विपना मै आऊ न आऊ

आई मिस यू !

 

Sun Shine, frustration and sadness can be too dangerous in some time. do not stay alone for some time, until you develop some hopes in your life again. better to stop thinking about him or your past. talk to your friends or relatives for hours, get you engaged in some work or talks, or go to your friend's or relatives house to stay with her/them. I heard that one very effective way of releasing stress or tension is to say - i hate you, i hate you , i hate you;  put your pillow in your lap, say it loudly two three times, and throw the pillow out to a corner of your room, or do something like that way. if you find someone who was also betrayed by his/her spouse or gf/bf, talk to her or him, he/she will hear your griefs honestly.

you need to judge him from his actions or behaviours (if he also felt that you two would be a perfect couple, why he went for another girl?), not from what he says or said - "you are so cute, beautiful, etc???". you honestly loved him, but he did showy love to get something, eg, your friendship or whatever, from you. no doubt, he has betrayed you. so there is no point of still feeling for him. cherishing your happy moments with him in the  past can be harmful as it may make you feel that you are missing him very very badly.

Try to watch funny classic movie or comedy shows - Golmal, Andaj Appna Appna, Dhamal, American wedding, or Russell Peters, comedy TV shows, eg late night show, or Nepali or Hindi comedy shows or serials. there are so many movies that you can watch online. do not listen and watch sad songs. sadness may apply to your life, but sad songs do not help you heal your wounds, listening them just make you sad. try to laugh as much as possible. 

 

सन शाइन उता यस्तो गीत गाउदै होला ।

Let time take care of everything, these things are not in your hand , marriages are made in heaven , you will find a good person , don't worry.

 

कैले काही तिम्लाई पनि झझल्को मेरो आउछ होला