WHAT MAKES ME LONELY AND AGUISH IS NOT THAT I HAVE NOONE TO SHARE
BUT THIS,I HAVE ONLY MY OWN BURDDEN TO BEAR.
dedicated to onto one who lost their parents...i know it hurts it badly hurts when we lost someone.this one is dedicated to one who lost their parents.i will say it hurts coz i know what pain is.
i dont know and dont wanna know wether my dad died for good reason or bad reason but i am sure what he did hurt me ,broke me and tore me apart.but despite of all those things i love him more and more each day.miss him more each day..this is to every single dad who loves their daughter.
when i was small everyone use to say" छोरीको अनुहार र हाँसो त काटीकुटी बाबाको जसतै रहेछ।"at that time i use to feel so proud.i used to write poem and article as my dad used to .he was writer and reporter.my writing was about rainbow,sunsine,my dad mom,falling rain,smiling face.....and every poem i composed i use to rush or wait for my dad to show .and he use to kiss me in my forhead after he finished reading.and that was my precious gift.
i loved my dad and mom more than anything in this world. i am only daughter they had and they never wanted more child except meh. and my baba use to say i am his son. i used to consider myself most lucky gal in this whole world.
later all my hope,dreams ,love,happiness was shattered. police arrested my dad and was labelled as maoist.he wrote some article and poem related to maoism and all i knew that time was its bad to write.my small head only knew that much.later my dad was shot dead.
he was labelled maoist and shot dead.
i dont know why my dad did this to me??i also dont know if he ever loved me??if he did why did he choose something else beyond me.i am labelled as daughter of maoist .and nobody dares to write anything when their dad is killed as terrorist but i am not guilty abt my dad .i am just sad coz he choose politics more than me.
empathy,compassion and concern human being are legacy and greatest gift a parents could leave a child well noww i am the unluckiest one.
as i am sitting infront of my computer writing my venom ,anger on sajhaland.while every gal of my age enjoy flirting with guy laughing at stupid jokes ,talking and comparing boy with arjun rampal and brad pitt.
whenever any guy smile and brings hands of friendship toward me i just do is ignore them as much as i can.if anyone gives me compliment i just gazed them with blue eyes. meh and my stern face which never smile.
i encountered sudden drastic dip in graph of livnig when everything goes stale and flat enthusiasm goes stale and flat which never smile.i dont like smiling anymore coz i dont wanna look like dad.
when i see my mom's smile brimming with tears in eyes .i rush to my bedroom buried my fac in pillow and wept cupious tears .all tears shed never shed first time.i ranged against god and at life and injustice at my mom.

my mom is doc .she always go to hospital and cure patients but i wonder if their is any medicine which can heal my mom. sometime our prison are self impose.i like being on tears ,sadness,so noone can hurt me..

I HATE MAOIST !I HATE COZ THATS THE THING THAT TOOK MY DAD AWAY FROM ME.THATS THE THING DUE TO WHICH MY MOM SMILE WITH THROAT TIGHTENED TRYING HER BEST NOT TO CRY.
I HATE MAOIST BUT I CANT STOP LOVING MY DAD.

iNDIA? Ya, indira? or MADHURI saheeba ko heroin ?
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madhuri ko kunai kunai flim man parcha.
ani hajur ko?

opps... not a big time movie person!!
sorry

coffee,

ke garne herana...THREAD nai tesai chha. guess gareko FAIL bhaees re..kunai ni milena re.

tyo Saheeba bhane geeet khub suniyo ke, pahile. ani aajkaal ni sunichha kahile kahi...! tesaile MADHURI ho bhaneko SAHEEBA lai. "dubai hoina" bane jawaf paeeyo. nepali ma jawaf aapachhi, MADHURI ta pakkai hoina. Madhuri le nepali ke bujthi ra. hoina? aba INDI..lai complete garyo bhane INDIA hunchha, ki INDIRA hunchha (meri didi, saathi haru the ke INDIRA), GUESS milena. aba yo public forum ma LAUNA naam bhandinus SAHEEBA, real one, bhane pani kura aayena. thikai chha.

je bhayeni, TUPPI ( NANI BHAYE), CHULTHO (BABU BHAYE) samatera, kashinos sukhad bhabisyako lagi. kaamana garna ta sakinchha ni, tyo chahi guess garna pardaina ni. hoina. well.

hoina bhai galti bhayo ulto paryo ni.....ani ke ho ta..?

je bhayeni, TUPPI ( NANI BHAYE), CHULTHO (BABU BHAYE) bhayechha, milayera padam hai, yeslai..!

eheheheheh damini!!

testo ta damini bhanee hindi movie cha ni hoina ra???

aba afulai ta movie sovie teti tha hunna else i would have guessed some too!!! heheeh

kya bore bhayo!!

je bhayeni, TUPPI ( NANI BHAYE), CHULTHO (BABU BHAYE) samatera, kashinos sukhad bhabisyako lagi. kaamana garna ta sakinchha ni, tyo chahi guess garna pardaina ni. hoina.
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kamana ko laghi dhanyabad bhangali damini jee.khossidai chu sake jati.
saheeba bhanee name malai man parera rakheko gana sunera pani hoina madhuri mero herione pani hoina.kehi lekhnu man paryo bhane yahi name le lekhne garchu.name ma k nai cha ra j bhane pani huncha.

bhangali_damini=bhagli damini jee

yaar !!
yo correlation bujhina...
tuppi (naani bhaye re) , chulto (baabu bhaye re) ani.. taalu ( buri bhaye bhaye ho ki kya ho???)

saheeba... naam ma ta kei chaina.. .feri public forum who wants to disclose the real name... heheheehehe

tyo ta ho ki SAHEEBA ji.

tara bhanchhan ni, naam-ma manchheko BYAKTITYO luke-ko hunchha bhanera. khai hajur, katti samma satya ho tyo kura.

tara-pani ramro chha user-nam HAJUR ko. mero case ma hernus na, mero sathile mero lekhaee bata BHANGLI DAMINI, ma ho bhane tha paunu bho. ani time time maa, CHATNU hunchha.ke rakya tyo bhanera? well. yestai chha hajur yaha. Je bhayeni HAVE TO MOVE ON bhane jasto ni.

oh ho coffee, kasto garo prashna rakheko, timile. aba tyo EXCEPTIONAL CASE ko lagi ta, meeting nai basnu parla HAMI. KE gareni bhanera. TARA MEETING MA AAUDA, gadhi ko brake chai, chek gare-ra aam hai pahile nai. :)

hera damini malai jiskaako!!! heheheehehe

dont worry.. aba ta malai afai saano tino mechanic bhai sake..hehehehehe thax for the advise though!!

yaar malai ta baarta garne bhanyo ki.... bhok laagera aaucha.... anyway.. meeting ma chiyaa paan ko bebasta kasto cha ni??? no more pizza hai menu ma!! heeheheheh

saheeba .. damini... hajur haru dubai kaam ma hoisincha ho???? or school???

hai ta kasto samasya, khaire ko desh-ma yata halayeni piza uta halla yeni pizza. majboor chhau hami. well. milyo bhane MAKAI-BHATTA bhutera lymla. nabhaye, uhi ZA-PI ~ PIZZA. :)

Khushi lagyo malai, gadi ko oil change garne bela bhatyo mero. aba timi bhai bhai ke ko 20 khaire Rupiya kharchha garnu. nai nabhana ni. :)

hus hajur change gardiula... tara tyo makkai bhatta bhutera ek glaass chiso dahi ko moi pani takraisyo bhane.... no problem.... motor oil matrai hoina tranmission oil pani change gari diula.... chakka sakka futeka chana bhane tyo pani change gardiula heheheeheh...... gari chai kun paryo kunni??/ i hope hajur pajezo charsinna hola ... theheheheh

hoina ke pazero hunu, chha euta JAPANEES kuturka pareko...TIN KO- DWANG.
WELL.

affno ta ghar-ra bhaishi thakeko, dudh moi ta, dekheko nai chhaina bhanya, thammai 4 maina bhayo. aba yeso DUDH BIKAS SANTHAN tira, gara bhayeni lyamla ni, hajur lai testo man parne bhaye pachhi. DUKHA BHAISYOS...! :)

Who are you newuser????...duh i m confused...

this one for coffee.....thank u for ur nice piece..yeah sharing is caring...

Nirman, testo koi ni haina. But reading your study I thought you should be his son. I am pursuing your dad's(if he is your dad) career abroad, but I am lot lot younger, probably of your age. I respect him for his honesty and integrity from childhood although I differ from his core ideology.

study- sorry yar mistyped- reading ur story

thnk u for ur comments newuser...m his son..and m proud to be...